Random Whatevers~

Was there ever a time in your life when you simply wanted to give up? Perhaps what was going through your mind was that death was better than the shit you were going through. No, I'm not in that phase now... At least not anymore. That was a very long time ago. I was 15 when I first had suicidal thoughts. I don't remember what caused me to have them and I feel really stupid for having them then now. I mean, what on earth could a 15-year-old have gone through that could make him feel suicidal? An F in Add Math? Lol. Pathetic. The time I was serious about that shit, I gave my friend a letter about my committing suicide. He had never come to my house before, let alone meet me outside of school, but he came to see me later that day after school. I was really touched. Obviously, I chickened out from committing suicide. Maybe I was just seeking attention. Lol. Another time was when I was 16 or 17. This was some serious shit and wasn't just an attempt to seek attention because I never told anyone. I had some beef with a family member which caused a lot of tension and stress on my behalf. I won't go into the juicy details of the beef though. Again, I chickened out even though I already had a knife in hand and was already pointing it towards my wrist. *Suddenly feels like abandoning this post. Will write no more* End of post.

Maria Callas - Suicidio