The Informer


Rekindling Embers

It's been a while since my last post. I've officially completed my MA and am now chilling at home.

Here are a few photos of the trip all over the UK I went for with mum, dad, and 2 of mum's friends. It was a memory rekindling trip as we treaded the path we treaded back in the early 90s when we were living in the UK still.

The chronology was:

London > Wales > Scotland > Yorkshire > London

It took us a week, if I'm not mistaken. We didn't go south to Kent etc. though.

Anyway, Scotland was beaut. The highlands were boggy and unscenic but nice nonetheless. Visiting Loch Ness made me reminisce about the trip we had all over the UK back when I was small. The pit stop in Huddersfield made me reminisce even more because that was where I was raised. We went to our old house and my old school, and we even met our old land lord.

Doorway to Norway

I went to Norway with mum and Dad. It was in June, btw; so, this is like a throwback kinda thing. Even though it was already summer, it was still snowing in the mountains. Total wonder. I have never seen such beautiful scenery in my entire life. If you ever have time and some extra money, I totally recommend that you see the fjords in Norway.



How does one appreciate ramadan when it is the number of hours before iftar that they are obsessed with?

We check the time every now and then to see how long it is before we can break our fast, mindlessly worrying about our empty stomachs when what we should be worrying about is the empty stomachs of the poor fakir. We check the time every now and then to see how long it is before we can break our fast when what we should be checking is the number of good deeds we have done throughout the day.

Ramadan is a month of empathy such that we deprive ourselves of worldly pleasures so that we see how the less fortunate are faring. Ramadan is a month of forgiveness such that we seek forgiveness from Allah and those whom we have wronged one way or another. Ramadan is a month of physical, mental and spiritual cleansing such that we detoxify ourselves from the poisons in our body, mind and soul through fasting and prayer.



3 of the must go spots for tourists in Paris: the Eiffel Tower,the Louvre, and the Palace of Versailles.



If you like a flower, don't pluck it for it will wither away and die; let it be and watch it flourish


Tak sospir dah pasal kau. Aku lagi sospir dengan karangan pragmatik macam tahi aku yang dihantar tadi. Pffft.


Francesco Cilea: Io Son L'umille Ancella (from Adriana Lecouvreur) sung by Maria Callas

I Miei Sospiri

That feeling came again tonight. The feeling as though there were someone gripping my heart and yanking it out of my chest. I don't know why it often visits me. It's like a ghost that haunts me every time I like someone. I don't even know what this feeling is. It makes me want to cry. If this is what love is, why is it so painful? I thought love was supposed to be something nice.

I don't think I really know what it is to love and be loved. I'm not a strong person when it comes to my own feelings. I never have been. Though I often reject the idea of being in a relationship because it seems to lead to nowhere, I find myself falling in love regardless. People find me objective, analytic and frigid in certain respects, but when it comes to love, my character changes altogether. Why does the heart have such control over the mind? I am a contradiction myself.


I'd rather not fall in love but it just happens.