The Informer

16.1.15

Friends

It's already my second semester in UCL and I know that it's really late,but I'm starting to make friends. This was all out of starting the syntax study group. Ferdiye, Nouf, Ohoud, Carolina, Matteo, Bizi, Atheer, Shuyan, and the others who attended the study group. I'm glad that they were able to learn a bit from the tutorial I did. They even said that I was a good teacher, which boosts my confidence to teach linguistics in university one day.

I guess that this post only serves as an update that I actually do have friends here. It's a bit difficult for me to make friends mostly because I'm an introvert and (believe it or not) I'm shy initially to approach people. Unless people approach me, I won't make any friends. Thank god Ferdiye suggested to convene the meeting. If not, I might never have gotten close to being friendly enough to other people to consider them my friends or myself theirs.

Isn't it sad not to have friends? It definitely is.

13.1.15

太陽

今日はすてきな日だった。朝は雨だったけど11時ぐらいから雨が止まって天気が晴れてきた。

12.1.15

Missing

Today, I cried. Have you ever took your time to think about life and how desperately we need god? We were created by him and it is just natural for us to miss our creator despite his being so close to us that we don't notice - not even a single bit. Life on earth as we know it is nothing compared to what god has promised to us in the afterlife. There will always be peace when the time comes for us to leave this earth. That is why we reach so high to grasp the fragile thread of hope to this land of promise. The longer we wait, the more powerful our feelings of longing for god grow. The wait to see him makes us become impatient and fills our eyes with tears for how such small human beings we are compared to the creator.

It has been a really long time since the last time I cried thinking about god. There has only been one other instance of me crying because of god or religion and that was when I was performing solat taubat one lonely night. I can't lie that I am actually shedding tears as I am writing this post. Why was I suddenly moved to tears?